unproductive piece of shit
hi guys, i have been feeling a little unproductive lately, and in general, really unmotivated.
i dont know if its the things going on in my life, but i noticed that since summer started, i have been coding lesser and lesser. hm, but wait, maybe there is a reason!
so, back when i was productive, i had this wld project that i named mot. it was a item launcher based off of swclock, as my usualy wld projects start off as. it was super hard to get lnd to be what it was, i was asking everyone for feedback, showcasing it on tiktok.. almost to reddit.
but then, something goes wrong.
so i came back from a long day of school, fired up my laptop, and hm.. i had a lot of pings. i scrolled up, and my heart sank. a bunch of mean words about my project had been said by a certain someone. even one of my friends that i asked feedback for on the project were agreeing. i looked at my project. one star missing, and a pull request. in that pull request, read exactly
i was like "?", then i looked, and saw -890 and a empty branch. i almost cried
i tried to reason with the person, but i was hurt, and decided to private the repo. the person then asked me to review their item launcher... bruh
to be fair, they were right. the code was messily indented, had questionable methods, and was really a mess. but i dont get what is so helpful about bashing my code infront of everyone, and then basically telling me to delete the repo
but how does this relate to me being unmotivated? well, that really took a toll on me. lnd was a project i really put work into, and seeing someone hate it so much like that, sucked all the drive to code out of me. today, i even looked back at all my projects to see something to do.
dance to pay respect
other than being sad, i have been gayming over the summer!
played a few games here and there with my school friends, but im banned from most of the games they play (on roblox) so its not really notable to mention.
but you wanna know whats really notable? derivecraft!join us at mc.9larp.net
nothing bad really, its a fun game, fun experience, everyone cool is there, and i love it! its just that i find myself waking up, immediately bringing up freesmlauncher, and hopping on the server. sometimes, theres too much fun, and it stops you from doing productive things.